Finding Confidence

Confidence. It’s a weird thing, isn’t it? It’s there in some circumstances for no reason at all, and it’s lacking in other areas and we can’t figure out why.

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This picture represents an ‘aha” moment for me. Ben says it was the moment I realized that I had been the chihuahua that thought I was the big dog. I remember seeing this picture after it was taken and thinking, “wait, am I really that small?” It was the first time that I realized I wasn’t the same size as everyone else. I know. How could I not have known? But I honestly didn’t. I always just charged right in with these guys, and I had no clue.

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I remember saying out loud to people, “I’m going to go roll Justin, he’s my size!” Um, he’s definitely not. Weird. I blame confidence..I don’t know where that confidence came from. I wish I did, I would sprinkle it over every other area of my life that lacks that type of confidence.

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I know people think I’m confident all the time, and I’m here to tell you I’m not. If I could harness that “little dog” confidence all the time, I would. But, many times? I’m just faking it till I make it. I do things scared. A lot.

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Truth is, I don’t know how to create confidence other than by moving forward regardless of how I feel. Feeling ill equipped? Do it anyway. Feeling like you are the weak link? Press forward and grow. Feeling out of place? So is the next person…go talk to them.

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If you wait to feel confident before doing something, you’ll never try anything new. It’s like waiting for the “right time” to have kids-there isn’t one.

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Lacking confidence? So am I. Do the things anyway.