Fighting My Body & Mind

Laying, stretching out my neck and letting my arm rest (because it doesn’t want to function anyway) and having a brain war about whether I should cry in frustration vs. reminding myself that it’s part of the healing process.

I haven’t cried yet. Doesn’t mean I won’t. And if I do, it’s not the end of the world. But, I am actively trying to win a game in my head that my body really, really seems keen to lose.

I did almost the entire class this morning. I picked four people I knew I could safely roll and rolled after class. My body is unsure what in the heck I’m doing. My arm is thinking I’ve been pumping iron for 10 hours and doesn’t want to function. My neck is sore, but good sore. It doesn’t change the fact that it hurts. 

Jiu Jitsu is hard. Life is hard. Injuries suck and are apart if it all. Might as well learn how to fight my own body and head-it won’t be the last time I need to.